The Journey

Blog post created by aranel vivarini, owner of www.aranelvivarini.com. this blog would be about the journey of a creator, trying to chase the dream of making it in the art industry, as well as adventures and share stories and people that I've meet through it. blogging is a way of curating the soul

You're not a hero

little Ara

Look back, see yourself playing the hero? See how you helped saved Iguanas from being killed by a slingshot? Do you see yourself chasing kids calling your name? look back, do you see yourself running around playing tag? Playing ball? Do you see that kid that believed in love? That believed love was a magical force that would last an eternity? Remember that kid that swore to god to never ever smoke, that kid who’s life was a fairy tale, that kid that went to Disney world every year to meet her heroes? That kid who’s smile would light up a room? That kid that had the innocence of believing that everyone was good? That every soul she touched was pure? That believed good hearts were real? see that kid that cried in her grandmothers funeral and weeks after that? See that kid that not matter how bad the situation was,tried to see the good in it? See that kid that loves with such a tender heart? Look closer, remember the look of pain when her heart was broken for the first time? Or that time that her parents found out that she in fact wasn’t what they wanted her to be? That time she got so drunk trying to explain her parents that loving someone didn’t make her a bad person? But instead made her brave, remember those nights where it was a struggle to breath? The time you broke that girl's heart breaking yours in the process? or that time you saw her for the first time and couldn’t believe your eyes? do you remember? Or that time you found love in the dance floor while alcohol ran through your veins? That the only thing you remember was that she kissed you and told you not to be afraid? Do you remember all the struggle? All the cars you washed in the burning sun? Or that time you slept for a year in an air mattress. or that time you saw your mom cry because of someone’s else words? That time your dad told you that we had nothing but still wanted to give you everything? that time she saw her friend hit bottom? That time she wanted to help but couldn’t? See that time she realized that not everyone needed fixing? That time you wanted nothing but be a hero? but realized that you're not a hero?

                              - Aranel Vivarini

What is this I'm feeling?

here I am trying to keep up with my sanity, keeping my anxieties and all these feelings at bay. it's a constant battle that you fight with yourself, a battle you have no choice but to fight. I have to make peace with all of these raw emotions. I'm not scared of them, that's not why I'm writing this. I'm writing this to remind myself that all of these emotions are a part of life, a part of my personal growth, a part of what's going to make me a better person after all. see there are many things we're not told as kids, we're told that we have to work hard to make things happen but they don't tell us all the emotional battles we have to go through in order to make it all happen and succeed, but no worries life is amazing. You're going to go through hell and back and that's okay too, you're going to be fine. just listen to some Kanye west or Beyonce and put some shades on to feel like you own this mother F##*K world! 

                                       - Aranel Vivarini

Tribble mill park tree

The Move

March 29th 2017 was the day I left home for the first time, I didn't know what I was doing until the moment I set foot in the plane. I was speechless for a moment, I told myself that everything was going to be fine, but then doubt started kicking in, why would you leave your house? why leave your work, why would you go and make things harder for yourself? why? well your dreams, you're chasing your dreams kid. I don't quite know what I'm doing here, all I know is that I'm chasing a dream, we're taught to be in one place all the time, we're taught that in order to be successful we should go to school first and then everything is going to fall in place, I'm doing everything out of order, but just a little reminder that's okay as well, rules sometimes are meant to be broken, I don't know if I'll be successful or if everything will fall in place but all I know is that I'll be working hard towards my dreams, yes there's a lot of doubt within myself but there's also dreams and hopes, there are people out there rooting for me, who believed in me even before I started believing in myself. so hear me out, I'll be trying to keep my sanity and write a blog once a week, I'll put some pictures up of what this journey looks like, and I'll share a bit of my soul in here for you guys.

 

- Aranel Vivarini